
Embrace
I’ve spent my entire life
Trying to be like someone else
Trying to get the attention
The applause
Of all who were in the room
But all those people went their own way
The room is empty now
So silent
So quiet
And here I am alone
With a person I don’t even know
A person who’s nothing more than a facade
Nothing less than a shadow
Where someone turned the light off
This dark, still space
Is heavy, almost unbearable, in my chest
So I know there is something there
I simply don’t know what
Or Who
I’m frankly terrified at what may come forth
What if I really am a monster
A hideous genetic accident
A blight on the design of the universe
A person incapable of love
Or being loved
What if I don’t measure up
To all that is considered greatness?
What if I fail in every single category
In everything known to matter?
I’m not so sure the “what if’s” matter
I’m not so sure I’ve ever seen them bring forth life
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Or maybe they do
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What if I’m more beautiful than could ever be imagined
What if I really am a child of God
What if my very existence brings a flower of change
A spark of exquisite light to a backdrop of dark gray
What if I am not alone
What if there is infinite love within me
What if there is nothing but hope and goodness
And everything else is just a mere illusion
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What if….
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What if I join in a divine embrace?
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4/4/20 kdc