
Crossroads
Maybe it’s time to say goodbye to guilt
To shame
To self-criticism and hate
I hear the screams of the rigid
“you’re taking away the right from the wrong”
Exactly
I’m tired of playing this dualistic song
I’m tired of the same old lyrics
The same old endings
The same old routines
I’ve listened so long to what righteousness means
That when I awoke I found I had no freaking idea
So here I am, basked in broad panacea
Wondering if there is even a disease
Wondering if the absence of leaves on the trees
Has been what I was taught was all right was all wrong
Wondering if this sedative was a poison all along
Deadening the world and the living
Taking and taking while touting the giving
Was the answer to all of life’s failures
I sit here penniless, empty handed, a shell
I’ve tried so many things, done none of them well
I stand at the crossroads of yearning
Maybe a pause, maybe unlearning
Is exactly where I need to be
Maybe it doesn’t matter which road I take
When both roads lead to me free
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8/24/20, kdc